Wednesday, May 25, 2011


just because this song is good.

sorry for the lack of posts lately. i'm down to the wire with this quarter and then it's officially summer. Give me New Jersey, give me my boyfriend, give me living at home (YEAH I SAID IT), give me home cooked meals, give me my mom, give me all sorts of things! Are you listening, Summer? I know you are. With that said, I love living in Savannah so much but i'll be back in the fall to soak her all in again.

Lately i've been busy being 80 years old (or 8 months old?) by having a very specific weekly routine that i've grown to love. not to mention i'm spending some quality time with my apartment. Working on projects from the comfort of my own bed, staring out my window, listening to music (OR watching 'my shows' like anything on Bravo and 2pm reruns of the Sopranos) with a huge iced coffee at my side? Yes please.

I won't speak too soon since I have seven days left of the quarter, but I think I accomplished a couple of personal goals that I set for myself back in March. I worked extremely hard in school, I spent time with friends & even made new ones, went to as many fashion related lectures as possible (just this weekend i listened to andre leon talley & manolo blahnik speak at the lucas theater in savannah. that manolo was a real loon but i liked it.) spent quality time with my Dad, I got to visit Chicago and I got rid of a lot of things/clothing that had been sitting around. So what I'm saying is that this is like my Ramona Singer " Tru Renewal" phase! Where's Mario!? Where's the pinot grigio? Where are my crazy eyes? Oh screw it, I love ya Ramona! Just kidding about the eyes thing!

For the fall, I'm sure I'll have a whole other list of new Savannah goals. Until then, i'm satisfied with what I did for the past ten weeks. Hear that obnoxious noise? That might be me tooting my own horn. Just once. That's a lie, there might be more of that. Wha? It's a blog.*

*= if you haven't noticed, "it's a blog" is my new favorite excuse for when I say something really annoying and eye-roll-worthy.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Friday, May 13, 2011

dear everyone who wears these,

you look like a fucking idiot.


Monday, May 9, 2011


Having a good sense of smell is probably one of my favorite things about life. Similar to music, scents are just another easy way of being transported to another place. A certain smell can take you into a time machine back to a certain memory that you didn't even realize you were keeping inside your brain.

Once you're all dressed for the day or night, the last thing you add onto yourself before stepping out the door is a spritz of your favorite perfume. Girls see their moms doing it when they're little while they're watching them get ready to go out for the night, and as the little girls get older they begin to do the same thing. Perfume is a beautiful tradition and an invisible way of expressing who you are while leaving a lasting impression.

A person can "have" their "own" scent without even owning their own fragrance line. I doubt anyone has their 'own' t-shirt or pair of jeans that they're instantly associated with, but smell can do that. Unless you're a person who wears the same t-shirt, jeans and smells weird all at once, then it can be a negative thing. But we're talkin' about positivity here!

So here is a list of my favorites even though favorites lists are narcissistic, but hey, this is a blog. So what who cayuhz.

This is one of the best scents ever and I'm constantly being complimented on it. I've been wearing it for about a year now and my friends can often smell it before they even get a chance to say Hi to me. It's always awkward when an old woman asks me what I'm wearing and I have to tell them "Oh, it's called..cannabis rose?". 9 times out of 10 I just say "I'm not sure! I borrowed someone's!". What's the big deal in saying cannabis? I don't know. NBD. I guess I'm a big ol' prude deep down. Anyway, it rules and lasts FOREVER. The scent is so strong and no it doesn't smell like weed. The title is misleading which can be seen as either a good thing or bad thing, depending on what kinda gal you are.
Quite possibly my favorite perfume that I'm constantly going back to. It was my first 'real perfume' that I decided I wanted after smelling a tiny sample of it at the mall. I had never heard of the brand and never really cared that much about fragrances until I smelled this. It's extremely hard to describe but I've been told that people say it reminds me of them. In fact, I remember spraying a letter I wrote to a boy I was dating with this. He asked me "This smells exactly like you. Did you spray it?" and I said "No. I did not" when I clearly did. I don't know who I thought I was or what I was getting away with. But yes, this is a crowd pleaser and my favorite. Not to mention the bottle? It's absolutely gorgeous.
This is currently what I've been wearing. Switching off between Cannabis Rose and this. I just received it this year as a Christmas present and it's a beautiful smell in an extremely pretty little bottle. It's strange because I can never smell it on myself, but I'll spray it on at 10am and I'll get comments all throughout the day even til 5pm about it. It lasts for a while on you but doesn't overpower you which is good because you're the one who has to have the damn smell trailing you around all day.

Another thing is that this one seems to attract middle aged men. So i mean, if that's your thing..take note? But when the 40 something year old man with a questionable teeth situation making my burrito asks me what perfume I'm wearing? Shit gets weird. I certainly don't want to tell him "I'm wearing Cleopatra by Tocca. You know, the one you can get at Anthropologie?" so I just say "Nothing." Which might have made things weirder.

This is one of the best scents that can ever hit anyone nostrils. Seriously. I'm not even going to TRY to explain it. Most of you have probably come into contact with Angel, and it's just a beautiful stop-dead-in-your-tracks smell. It always reminds me of my Mom and I'll spritz it on occasionally when i'm home. I've never officially owned my own bottle of Angel but I'm always borrowing it and putting it on when I see it in a store. The bottle is really interesting and usually that color blue can be a little cheesy but it truly works with the rough way the glass bottle is formed.

This is my second all time favorite perfume. I've gone through three bottles of this over the past 3 or 4 years. It's amazing. Completely subtle, light and musky but it's one of those scents that people notice the second you walk into a room. Man, woman, cat, dog, tarantula, baby, ghost. Everyone loves this fragrance. I still keep the bottle on my mantle in my room, even though it's been pretty much empty for quite some time, because I'm still convinced if I spray even just the AIR in the bottle onto my skin that I'll be able to smell like a hint of it. It's one of those scents that really make your day brighter, when you're running around feeling like a mess or even when you're laying around doing nothing. One little sniff of your skin with For Her sprayed onto it really makes everything nicer.

This was my very first fragrance ever. My Dad was on a business trip to Los Angeles the same year that Gianni Versace was killed (which was when I first found out about him. I was about 5 or 6 I believe?). Since his name was all over the news, my Dad stopped into his boutique in Beverly Hills and picked up this fragrance for me to bring home. I believe it's a cologne for boys? But I still remember him bringing it home to me, and how I saved the bag for years. I never really wore it because I was too young for perfume so the bottle always sat on my dresser. In high school I started wearing it and fell in love with it's powdery scent. It's clean and refreshing with a bit of a 'pow' involved. I still have the bottle even though it has been empty for years.

It's a special scent for me because it was my first ever, and my first (and only) Versace possession. Not to mention my family loves a good scandal. I'm sure 99% of the reason why this was purchased was because Versace was just murdered. Have I told you guys that my parents and a 5 year old me also drove by the scene of the OJ Simpson murders when we were in LA? And on a previous California trip, with little ol' me in a car seat, my family apparently 'accidentally' almost stumbled upon Spahn Ranch. So let's just say that if there was an infamous murder fragrance, I might have wound up with that too. Is this why the true crime section of Barnes & Noble is my absolute favorite? Morbid 4 ever.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

i'm obsessed with this gold chain linked watch. is there a sugar daddy/mommy/parent/person out there that's feeling particularly generous?

Saturday, May 7, 2011

mother's day

my mom & baby me

Tomorrow is Mother's Day and I'm stuck in good ol' Georgia while my Mom is up north in New Jersey. I wasn't able to be with her last year either and that sucks. This year is different for my Mom because a couple of weeks ago, she finally made a dream come true for herself. After years of making floral arrangements for weddings here & there out of our garage, my mom finally opened up shop and started her own business full time. It's a big responsibility and it takes a lot of courage to 'pull the trigger' on a dream and I'm so proud that she did.

My Mom is a woman that I feel was truly meant to be a Mother. I can't think of one thing that she wouldn't do for not only my brother & myself, but for my nieces as well. She puts herself last on the totem pole and makes sure everyone else is taken care of first. We've always been close and sometimes I yell at her or give her a hard time, or she does the same to me but I truly consider her a best friend. She listens to me complain, cry, laugh, smile, everything. She's there for everything, even when it's not convenient. Hell, I'll even forgive her for not thinking I was her baby the first time she laid eyes on me. She thought the doctors mixed up and gave her another family's baby instead. I would have thought the same thing if I were her since I looked like I belonged to a family of sumo wrestlers.

I can't think of one idea that has popped into my head in my life that she didn't support. She's good at everything from giving me advice, to telling me to relax when I'm being crazy, making me laugh and smile, to being the best lunch date partner. She's passed on a lot to me, especially her love for interior design and nice things.

my grandma gen, my mom (in yellow) with my uncle kevin & aunt carole

I look back on how I've been alive for 22 years and how that feels like a long time. But then I think about how my Mom has been being my Mom for that long, putting me first for 22 years, being there for me in every way, shape and form for 22 years, and for even longer with my brother's life. And when I think about that, I can only hope and dream that I can be just as great of a Mom one day in the future.

my mom & my brother tim

One day when I'm a real person and when I have a job, instead of just sending cards and tiny gifts, I want to be able to really spoil my Mom all of the time. Because she deserves it. Not to mention she birthed two gigantic 10 lb babies. She deserves a lot just for that alone! Even if it was 20+ years ago.

I'm also keeping my two grandmothers in my thoughts tomorrow too. They aren't here anymore but both of them really play a huge part of who I am today. I think I have a little bit of them in me all of the time. Maybe it's because I'm secretly like an old lady in so many ways, and I really think they'd get a kick out of it if they were alive today to see it. I think they always knew though since I was little that I was kind of an old soul. When little happy things occur throughout the day or something really goes 'my way', I like to think they're my little angels watching out for me and guiding me down the right path.

So, Happy Mothers day to all of the mothers, grandmothers, step-mothers, almost-mothers, etc. out there. You all have the toughest and most special job around.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

hair vidz

sometimes when I can't sleep, I love watching youtube makeup/hair tutorials. i never do anything daring with my make up OR hair so I don't know why it's my favorite insomnia activity, but something about it calms me! especially the beauty department videos. lauren conrad & her make up aritst & hair stylist started it to show normal people how to get a certain look. basically, all five videos are common sense and kind of boring, but something about the clean white background, pretty music and text that made me keep watching.

With that said, is it just me or does this video above seem like magic? i am so disabled when it comes to curling irons. I have naturally thick/wavy hair but it never dries the way I want it to, so I just straighten it. When I'm in New Jersey, I often let it just air dry and go. My waves are so much better when I'm there! Maybe it's the water? Did you hear Osama Bin Laden died? There's still a war going on? Many Southern states are suffering devastating consequences after recent storms? Well, let's just keep talking about the things that matter: why my hair is wavier in New Jersey and not as wavy in Georgia.

But rly. Can someone teach my hands how to work a curling iron? And by people, I mean 55 internet followers that I basically don't know in real life? Just kidding, I know about 10 of you. Yeaaahhh, nevermind. I just want tamed wavy hair and not "frazzled Cathy cartoon woman tries to go natural/flowy" because that's what happens when I leave the straightener in it's drawer.

Bye guys, sorry again if you came here lookin' to read about nuclear war! next time!